28 October 2008

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[1] Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. [2] Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. [3] For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. [4] Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. [5] Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me. [6] Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. [7] Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. [8] Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice. [9] Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. [10] Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. [11] Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. [12] Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. [13] Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee. [14] Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. [15] O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise. [16] For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering. [17] The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. [18] Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem. [19] Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.

WOW. This chapter in the Bible makes me cry. It shows just how merciful Jesus is, that not matter how far you stray for him, he is there to take you back, time doesn't matter, age doesn't matter, circumstances don't matter. Being saved does.
So this weekend, Bro David Holmes preached because Pastor Dehod was away, and he said a few things that grabbed me.
-God always wins.
-You can never outrun, outdetemind, outdistance God (paraphrasing)
-Once you are saved, his light follows you
-Other people don't understand.
-Jesus loves you no matter what.

God Bless.
-J

13 October 2008

God Alone

Well, here I am again. And once again, I'm in the writing mood. Imagine that..lol Anyway, here are some things that I wanted to share with you.
My favourite Scripture in the Bible:
"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." ISAIAH 40:31
Something that I came up with:
God Alone
If you don't know, Ask
If you are scared, Hugs
If you are alone, Pray
If you are happy, Sing
If you love someone, Tell
If you are weak, Faith
If you are angry, Help
If you are discouraged, Smile
If you are smiling, Laugh
If you are sad, Cry
If you are all or one of these things, Go to God.
God Bless and remember someone loves you, no matter where are you, what you have done, how you have acted, or how you look.
A friend told me, one day, that you can only be you, you can't change you (your special personalities), you can only be you. You can't act like someone else, you can only do you best. You can only be you best, and no one else can be you.
-J

08 October 2008

Away!

Well, Hello all!
Yes, it has been months since I have last written. Well, I have my reasons, some of them being, I haven't had time (whoever made the 24-hour-day, didn't realize that it wasn't enough time in a day. Pity they aren't alive now to see for themselves) anyway, and the biggest reason is simply because I haven't had anything to write. I mean, I had topics, but I always felt like I really didn't want the whole world to know, or they already did (you see, I have this theory, that if you have a problem with something, and the more people you talk to about it, the better you feel. So when I had a problem, the whole world knew....is this unusual?? lol). Anyway, then, tonight, I was being really bored, and trying to see if I had the guts to try and learn something new, without help, and I had the STRANGEST urge to write. So here I am. Writing for the first time in forever and it actually feels like it's time again. I guess I just needed a break?? lol Maybe..
So, with my life, lately, I have been going through some pretty wonderful stuff (please note sarcasm.) and me thinks that is why I haven't written. I find that when I write, it makes me look at things more logically and I get through my thoughts better. Only I haven't been writing since, oh about early Aug. And, to be honest (this is always a good thing.) that is probably when things started...
Lets see, in the month of August, I had several things happen to me, and I can even list them..lol
1). My best friend got into TONS of trouble-uh oh.
2). My sis and I and some other people, the next week, got into TONS of trouble...bigger uh oh.
3). My best friend stops talking to me. crack! (yes, that was my heart)
4). I start grade 12 and find out that I have one friend in my school. wow. I'm impressed.
5). Then, through out this whole time, I have the regular fights, nasty attitudes, speeding tickets and other fun things.
So, August wasn't much fun, and come to think of it, neither was September. Oh dear. Now what? Good question. If you have an answer, please let me know...lol
I have spent several hours, days, and several days worrying, praying, talking and getting mad (which, while it doesn't solve a thing, if you are in trust worthy company, helps) while trying to sort myself out. Now, I feel like I can't do anything about anything, except control myself....on occasion. And that doesn't particularly sit well with me.
And, right now, nothing has changed, I still have things to do, not enough time, problems that are on my head, and people to....deal with. But inside me, I think something is happening. Something is stirring and maybe will come to light soon. But something is different in maybe my heart? hmm.
You know, actually you don't, but before, I felt awkward trying to write a blog post, and now, I don't, so I think that is the biggest thing. (I guess when one's best friend quits that role, then self confidence goes WAYY down.) And, another thing, since I don't have one anymore, I have started to think about God being the one and True Best Friend. And, I don't really think people can say that, unless they have experienced a loss that causes them to turn back to God as the most reliable friend of all. And maybe that's why I have had to go through that loss, to realize that God is good.
Hmm, thinking and writing at the same time causes a very confusing blog post. Oh well, I'm sure you can figure it out. :)
ANyway, I'm going to depart to my bed and let you read this. Have a good night, God bless and remember to smile and laugh. Because the Lord is AMAZING!
-J