I wrote this on facebook, but thought it could be read here too.
Dear Friend,
Well, first of all, how are you? How was your day today? Mine was pretty good. Kind of busy, but over all a decent day. :)
So, I am writing you to say hi and explain a few things. I haven't talked to you in awhile, in fact, I probably am not even be your friend on facebook. But since when does internet sites like Facebook dictate who is our friend or not? Well, I wanted to let you know, I still think about you. Almost every day. I want to say hi, to get involved with your life again, to share your secretes, to understand your troubles and pain. Only I have a problem with this. I cannot get past this barrier. This barrier that I do not know how to break. I want to be your friend, to help, to share your load. This barrier is one of lack of communication all the time, lack of effort, lack of time, lack of caring, lack of understanding of the differences we have. I try and see past it, but I am coming from a different perspective and I fail.
I want to be there for you, for the laughs, for the tears. And I was. Once upon a time. Now, I barely know you. But I want to. I want to be able to pray for you. To take your problems to God, and show you that you can take your problems to God too. I don't know how to break this barrier. Maybe you do. Maybe you don't want to. Maybe you don't even care. Maybe you don't even remember the relationship we had. Maybe I am the only one who wants this.
Well, it doesn't matter. I will enjoy a relationship if you want, but if you don't, I still will continue doing what I have been for awhile. Praying for you. Letting God know that I haven't forgotten you and you are on my mind everyday. I think about how I know someone how can help you, someone who loves you more then I do, someone who knows everything about you and still wants you.
So if you read this, you know. I am praying for you. I love you even if we never talk again. I met you, had a relationship with you and memories for a reason and I will not forget. God had us meet and I will pray for you. For as long as I can. I love you and remember God does too. No matter what.
God Bless,
Jenna
25 January 2010
24 January 2010
First real snow fall of 2010
So funny story:
My dear sister was feeling a little bit of cabin fever this afternoon... Wait, let me back up. Every since yesterday, it has been snowing. LOTS. But what is Saskatchewan without snow?? So it's not like we haven't been expecting it, it just kept coming, and coming. ANYWAY so today, on day 2 of snow 'storm' of '10, Rach wanted to go for a WALK. Mildly crazy she is. So her ever stupider sister, ME said, okay I will go with you. So we decided to walk to Shopper Drug Mart just about four looong blocks from our house. So off we go, get all bundled up. **three pairs of tights, two icebeaker shirts and our ski skirts and of course our winter boots and hats.** We leave. The first block was fairly easy... Of course the first block was only a house away then we had to cross the road... RIGHT. The snow was about two feet deep, so here Rach and I are "goosestepping" across the road. Okay. we made it that far, then we got to the part where people hadn't gotten out of their house yet and THEY DID NOT SHOVEL. So there we go again, marching through the THREE feet deep snow. :P
Then we got to the part where it was open field and we were almost blown away from the wind. Okay, fine, then we made it. Good to go back home, after warming our frozen faces and getting an energy drink. On our way back, my dear sister has another epiphany to use the other side of the street so we won't be DIRECTLY in the wind... Only her recce skills failed miserably. the snow somehow was three feet high. Great. So we get to our first snow drift. I get over after running at it. Rach tries the same thing, only she falls.. on her face on the other side of the snow drift. Okay I help her up. Off we go again. then we get to the next one, I got first over again, but Rach feeling a little put out because I made it over the first snow drift without falling, decides to push me over. So down I go and crawl the rest of the way over and down because I found it was much safer that way. LOL Then I look ahead, oh there are two other brave people walking towards us...They fall. They try and help each other up. They fail. Rach and I just about die laughing.Then we meet up with them. The one person says, be careful over there, it's a little hard. So we give them the same warning about the snow drifts and continue our way home. We make it home.
Now, in the parting lot of Shoppers, one van got stuck and had to be helped out, then as we are leaving, we see this car that got REALLY stuck. So stuck that the driver decided to leave it there. Where it got stuck. LOL I thought that was pretty funny.
So my advice to you is: Don't listen to your older sibling when they are bored and want to do something.
God Bless.
-J
My dear sister was feeling a little bit of cabin fever this afternoon... Wait, let me back up. Every since yesterday, it has been snowing. LOTS. But what is Saskatchewan without snow?? So it's not like we haven't been expecting it, it just kept coming, and coming. ANYWAY so today, on day 2 of snow 'storm' of '10, Rach wanted to go for a WALK. Mildly crazy she is. So her ever stupider sister, ME said, okay I will go with you. So we decided to walk to Shopper Drug Mart just about four looong blocks from our house. So off we go, get all bundled up. **three pairs of tights, two icebeaker shirts and our ski skirts and of course our winter boots and hats.** We leave. The first block was fairly easy... Of course the first block was only a house away then we had to cross the road... RIGHT. The snow was about two feet deep, so here Rach and I are "goosestepping" across the road. Okay. we made it that far, then we got to the part where people hadn't gotten out of their house yet and THEY DID NOT SHOVEL. So there we go again, marching through the THREE feet deep snow. :P
Then we got to the part where it was open field and we were almost blown away from the wind. Okay, fine, then we made it. Good to go back home, after warming our frozen faces and getting an energy drink. On our way back, my dear sister has another epiphany to use the other side of the street so we won't be DIRECTLY in the wind... Only her recce skills failed miserably. the snow somehow was three feet high. Great. So we get to our first snow drift. I get over after running at it. Rach tries the same thing, only she falls.. on her face on the other side of the snow drift. Okay I help her up. Off we go again. then we get to the next one, I got first over again, but Rach feeling a little put out because I made it over the first snow drift without falling, decides to push me over. So down I go and crawl the rest of the way over and down because I found it was much safer that way. LOL Then I look ahead, oh there are two other brave people walking towards us...They fall. They try and help each other up. They fail. Rach and I just about die laughing.Then we meet up with them. The one person says, be careful over there, it's a little hard. So we give them the same warning about the snow drifts and continue our way home. We make it home.
Now, in the parting lot of Shoppers, one van got stuck and had to be helped out, then as we are leaving, we see this car that got REALLY stuck. So stuck that the driver decided to leave it there. Where it got stuck. LOL I thought that was pretty funny.
So my advice to you is: Don't listen to your older sibling when they are bored and want to do something.
God Bless.
-J
03 October 2009
Enlisted
My country doesn't think we need,
Those who fought battles and won
A peacekeeping nation.
Yet they cry for action
When things go wrong,
Their faces filled with fear and indignation
They demand
Something be done.
"Don't they know we are in danger?"
They plea to a military
viewed as useless,
A military,
They forbid their sons and daughters to
Enlist.
-J
The Love
The twenty-eighth of April
In nineteen eight-four
The day that two people were
United by love and happiness
Parents wondered what would
Be the outcome for that day
Until they saw the love
That they were bonded with
Two children are the bloom of that love
Two lives have grown older
Becasue of that love
As the years go by
And they grow aged
That love is still there'
Still growing stronger.
-J
Some writing... :)
Tomorrow
Tomorrow,
The day looked on with anticipation.
The hopes and dreams
it seems to hold.
One gives freely of his will,
For on the morrow,
Everything will be better.
The morrow holds the keys to
Success or failure.
Is the stepping stone of life.
How can Tomorrow ever fail you?
The fail placed,
never wanes or is shaken.
For "There will be a tomorrow
and it would be better."
-J
18 September 2009
Once in a while...
Hullo.
Well, I am alive. I apparently don't have this whole blog every week down, and most likely never will. Oh well. Blogs can be that way I guess. Anyway. My writing has gone down hill since grade 11, which is when I decided to write a blog. I'm hoping a buddy of mine can help get my creativeness flowing agian. :) Until then, my oh so faithful readers will have to suffer through my writing. I'vve been wanting to start writing poems again, but never seem to have time. as per usual. But anyway, I didn't come on here to rant and complain about my lack of time in a day or my lack of blog posts.
I guess I'd like to say (for all to read in black and white) Thank you God. I am a veryyyyy slow learner when it comes to god trying to change me, and realizing just how perfect He organized and planned things in my life. I love God. and am in consistant reminder how good, big, perfect He is. Keeps me from getting too mad at other people who are just like me. Not perfect. yay!.
ANYWAY. God taught me an important lesson recently, which I'm sure most everyone else in the world has learnt, but like I said, I'm a slow learner. I had...this...situation that I needed patience in. Very badly. (Yes, patience was apart of what I learnt, but not my focus) I needed to give this situation over to God. And over the course of three weeks of this sitaution, God showed me that when I need to overcome something in my life, the best thing I can do, is keep giving it over to God. No matter how often a day I had to just give it back to God, no matter how I just wanted to do it my way and not let God do it His way, no matter how tired I got of giving it back to Him, I have to give it to Him. He was always there to take it (even though I had done that about 200 times) and to give me strenght to leave it in His hands.
Like I said, most people who live for God have already learnt this and can do it great, but I am young and I and dumb and it takes me a while to learn things. So all I can say is: Thank God, He is God. :)
God Bless.
-J
Well, I am alive. I apparently don't have this whole blog every week down, and most likely never will. Oh well. Blogs can be that way I guess. Anyway. My writing has gone down hill since grade 11, which is when I decided to write a blog. I'm hoping a buddy of mine can help get my creativeness flowing agian. :) Until then, my oh so faithful readers will have to suffer through my writing. I'vve been wanting to start writing poems again, but never seem to have time. as per usual. But anyway, I didn't come on here to rant and complain about my lack of time in a day or my lack of blog posts.
I guess I'd like to say (for all to read in black and white) Thank you God. I am a veryyyyy slow learner when it comes to god trying to change me, and realizing just how perfect He organized and planned things in my life. I love God. and am in consistant reminder how good, big, perfect He is. Keeps me from getting too mad at other people who are just like me. Not perfect. yay!.
ANYWAY. God taught me an important lesson recently, which I'm sure most everyone else in the world has learnt, but like I said, I'm a slow learner. I had...this...situation that I needed patience in. Very badly. (Yes, patience was apart of what I learnt, but not my focus) I needed to give this situation over to God. And over the course of three weeks of this sitaution, God showed me that when I need to overcome something in my life, the best thing I can do, is keep giving it over to God. No matter how often a day I had to just give it back to God, no matter how I just wanted to do it my way and not let God do it His way, no matter how tired I got of giving it back to Him, I have to give it to Him. He was always there to take it (even though I had done that about 200 times) and to give me strenght to leave it in His hands.
Like I said, most people who live for God have already learnt this and can do it great, but I am young and I and dumb and it takes me a while to learn things. So all I can say is: Thank God, He is God. :)
God Bless.
-J
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