I find myself in or asked to help with complex situations. My first feeling (even if it's about me, and my BAD attitude) is,
"Is this going to help me get to Heaven?"
I have to continually think this/like this because that thought is the sole purpose of why we are on Planet Earth. Of course, it gets a bit more complicated, but only because we make it. That thought needs/should/has to be our first thought. Eternity is a long time. Our brains CANNOT even grasp it. Most of us go into denial about it, saying,
"Oh there is NO eternity and especially NO GOD."
Well, that's how we think. UNFORTUNATELY, simply that concept is denying the truth. For example: Your eyes are blue. Someone comes up to you and says,
"Oh I like your green eyes." because they believe that blue is green. The Truth is the Truth.
Well, God is God, eternity is long and this is true. ABSOLUTE TRUTH. And for everyone who wants to KNOW the truth bad enough, PRAY. And guess what?!? God hears and answers and that is why you get people like me telling others about. The "others" haven't wanted to know the TRUTH bad enough to pray and get an answer from God.
SO the key to all complex situations? PRAY. Get back to the basics..
Which is???....
Is this going to help me get to Heaven?
**** If you don't know, then it's not important enough for you to be worrying about so just GIVE THE SITUATION TO GOD and let Him take care of it.****
Please note:
I dislike all those "situational" questions. If its going to happen, or happening, PRAY. Prayer will FIX all things. Keep Praying. P.S. Even if you don't have the Holy Ghost, God still answers prayer.
:)
God Bless.
04 March 2010
25 January 2010
Dear Friend
I wrote this on facebook, but thought it could be read here too.
Dear Friend,
Well, first of all, how are you? How was your day today? Mine was pretty good. Kind of busy, but over all a decent day. :)
So, I am writing you to say hi and explain a few things. I haven't talked to you in awhile, in fact, I probably am not even be your friend on facebook. But since when does internet sites like Facebook dictate who is our friend or not? Well, I wanted to let you know, I still think about you. Almost every day. I want to say hi, to get involved with your life again, to share your secretes, to understand your troubles and pain. Only I have a problem with this. I cannot get past this barrier. This barrier that I do not know how to break. I want to be your friend, to help, to share your load. This barrier is one of lack of communication all the time, lack of effort, lack of time, lack of caring, lack of understanding of the differences we have. I try and see past it, but I am coming from a different perspective and I fail.
I want to be there for you, for the laughs, for the tears. And I was. Once upon a time. Now, I barely know you. But I want to. I want to be able to pray for you. To take your problems to God, and show you that you can take your problems to God too. I don't know how to break this barrier. Maybe you do. Maybe you don't want to. Maybe you don't even care. Maybe you don't even remember the relationship we had. Maybe I am the only one who wants this.
Well, it doesn't matter. I will enjoy a relationship if you want, but if you don't, I still will continue doing what I have been for awhile. Praying for you. Letting God know that I haven't forgotten you and you are on my mind everyday. I think about how I know someone how can help you, someone who loves you more then I do, someone who knows everything about you and still wants you.
So if you read this, you know. I am praying for you. I love you even if we never talk again. I met you, had a relationship with you and memories for a reason and I will not forget. God had us meet and I will pray for you. For as long as I can. I love you and remember God does too. No matter what.
God Bless,
Jenna
Dear Friend,
Well, first of all, how are you? How was your day today? Mine was pretty good. Kind of busy, but over all a decent day. :)
So, I am writing you to say hi and explain a few things. I haven't talked to you in awhile, in fact, I probably am not even be your friend on facebook. But since when does internet sites like Facebook dictate who is our friend or not? Well, I wanted to let you know, I still think about you. Almost every day. I want to say hi, to get involved with your life again, to share your secretes, to understand your troubles and pain. Only I have a problem with this. I cannot get past this barrier. This barrier that I do not know how to break. I want to be your friend, to help, to share your load. This barrier is one of lack of communication all the time, lack of effort, lack of time, lack of caring, lack of understanding of the differences we have. I try and see past it, but I am coming from a different perspective and I fail.
I want to be there for you, for the laughs, for the tears. And I was. Once upon a time. Now, I barely know you. But I want to. I want to be able to pray for you. To take your problems to God, and show you that you can take your problems to God too. I don't know how to break this barrier. Maybe you do. Maybe you don't want to. Maybe you don't even care. Maybe you don't even remember the relationship we had. Maybe I am the only one who wants this.
Well, it doesn't matter. I will enjoy a relationship if you want, but if you don't, I still will continue doing what I have been for awhile. Praying for you. Letting God know that I haven't forgotten you and you are on my mind everyday. I think about how I know someone how can help you, someone who loves you more then I do, someone who knows everything about you and still wants you.
So if you read this, you know. I am praying for you. I love you even if we never talk again. I met you, had a relationship with you and memories for a reason and I will not forget. God had us meet and I will pray for you. For as long as I can. I love you and remember God does too. No matter what.
God Bless,
Jenna
24 January 2010
First real snow fall of 2010
So funny story:
My dear sister was feeling a little bit of cabin fever this afternoon... Wait, let me back up. Every since yesterday, it has been snowing. LOTS. But what is Saskatchewan without snow?? So it's not like we haven't been expecting it, it just kept coming, and coming. ANYWAY so today, on day 2 of snow 'storm' of '10, Rach wanted to go for a WALK. Mildly crazy she is. So her ever stupider sister, ME said, okay I will go with you. So we decided to walk to Shopper Drug Mart just about four looong blocks from our house. So off we go, get all bundled up. **three pairs of tights, two icebeaker shirts and our ski skirts and of course our winter boots and hats.** We leave. The first block was fairly easy... Of course the first block was only a house away then we had to cross the road... RIGHT. The snow was about two feet deep, so here Rach and I are "goosestepping" across the road. Okay. we made it that far, then we got to the part where people hadn't gotten out of their house yet and THEY DID NOT SHOVEL. So there we go again, marching through the THREE feet deep snow. :P
Then we got to the part where it was open field and we were almost blown away from the wind. Okay, fine, then we made it. Good to go back home, after warming our frozen faces and getting an energy drink. On our way back, my dear sister has another epiphany to use the other side of the street so we won't be DIRECTLY in the wind... Only her recce skills failed miserably. the snow somehow was three feet high. Great. So we get to our first snow drift. I get over after running at it. Rach tries the same thing, only she falls.. on her face on the other side of the snow drift. Okay I help her up. Off we go again. then we get to the next one, I got first over again, but Rach feeling a little put out because I made it over the first snow drift without falling, decides to push me over. So down I go and crawl the rest of the way over and down because I found it was much safer that way. LOL Then I look ahead, oh there are two other brave people walking towards us...They fall. They try and help each other up. They fail. Rach and I just about die laughing.Then we meet up with them. The one person says, be careful over there, it's a little hard. So we give them the same warning about the snow drifts and continue our way home. We make it home.
Now, in the parting lot of Shoppers, one van got stuck and had to be helped out, then as we are leaving, we see this car that got REALLY stuck. So stuck that the driver decided to leave it there. Where it got stuck. LOL I thought that was pretty funny.
So my advice to you is: Don't listen to your older sibling when they are bored and want to do something.
God Bless.
-J
My dear sister was feeling a little bit of cabin fever this afternoon... Wait, let me back up. Every since yesterday, it has been snowing. LOTS. But what is Saskatchewan without snow?? So it's not like we haven't been expecting it, it just kept coming, and coming. ANYWAY so today, on day 2 of snow 'storm' of '10, Rach wanted to go for a WALK. Mildly crazy she is. So her ever stupider sister, ME said, okay I will go with you. So we decided to walk to Shopper Drug Mart just about four looong blocks from our house. So off we go, get all bundled up. **three pairs of tights, two icebeaker shirts and our ski skirts and of course our winter boots and hats.** We leave. The first block was fairly easy... Of course the first block was only a house away then we had to cross the road... RIGHT. The snow was about two feet deep, so here Rach and I are "goosestepping" across the road. Okay. we made it that far, then we got to the part where people hadn't gotten out of their house yet and THEY DID NOT SHOVEL. So there we go again, marching through the THREE feet deep snow. :P
Then we got to the part where it was open field and we were almost blown away from the wind. Okay, fine, then we made it. Good to go back home, after warming our frozen faces and getting an energy drink. On our way back, my dear sister has another epiphany to use the other side of the street so we won't be DIRECTLY in the wind... Only her recce skills failed miserably. the snow somehow was three feet high. Great. So we get to our first snow drift. I get over after running at it. Rach tries the same thing, only she falls.. on her face on the other side of the snow drift. Okay I help her up. Off we go again. then we get to the next one, I got first over again, but Rach feeling a little put out because I made it over the first snow drift without falling, decides to push me over. So down I go and crawl the rest of the way over and down because I found it was much safer that way. LOL Then I look ahead, oh there are two other brave people walking towards us...They fall. They try and help each other up. They fail. Rach and I just about die laughing.Then we meet up with them. The one person says, be careful over there, it's a little hard. So we give them the same warning about the snow drifts and continue our way home. We make it home.
Now, in the parting lot of Shoppers, one van got stuck and had to be helped out, then as we are leaving, we see this car that got REALLY stuck. So stuck that the driver decided to leave it there. Where it got stuck. LOL I thought that was pretty funny.
So my advice to you is: Don't listen to your older sibling when they are bored and want to do something.
God Bless.
-J
03 October 2009
Enlisted
My country doesn't think we need,
Those who fought battles and won
A peacekeeping nation.
Yet they cry for action
When things go wrong,
Their faces filled with fear and indignation
They demand
Something be done.
"Don't they know we are in danger?"
They plea to a military
viewed as useless,
A military,
They forbid their sons and daughters to
Enlist.
-J
The Love
The twenty-eighth of April
In nineteen eight-four
The day that two people were
United by love and happiness
Parents wondered what would
Be the outcome for that day
Until they saw the love
That they were bonded with
Two children are the bloom of that love
Two lives have grown older
Becasue of that love
As the years go by
And they grow aged
That love is still there'
Still growing stronger.
-J
Some writing... :)
Tomorrow
Tomorrow,
The day looked on with anticipation.
The hopes and dreams
it seems to hold.
One gives freely of his will,
For on the morrow,
Everything will be better.
The morrow holds the keys to
Success or failure.
Is the stepping stone of life.
How can Tomorrow ever fail you?
The fail placed,
never wanes or is shaken.
For "There will be a tomorrow
and it would be better."
-J
18 September 2009
Once in a while...
Hullo.
Well, I am alive. I apparently don't have this whole blog every week down, and most likely never will. Oh well. Blogs can be that way I guess. Anyway. My writing has gone down hill since grade 11, which is when I decided to write a blog. I'm hoping a buddy of mine can help get my creativeness flowing agian. :) Until then, my oh so faithful readers will have to suffer through my writing. I'vve been wanting to start writing poems again, but never seem to have time. as per usual. But anyway, I didn't come on here to rant and complain about my lack of time in a day or my lack of blog posts.
I guess I'd like to say (for all to read in black and white) Thank you God. I am a veryyyyy slow learner when it comes to god trying to change me, and realizing just how perfect He organized and planned things in my life. I love God. and am in consistant reminder how good, big, perfect He is. Keeps me from getting too mad at other people who are just like me. Not perfect. yay!.
ANYWAY. God taught me an important lesson recently, which I'm sure most everyone else in the world has learnt, but like I said, I'm a slow learner. I had...this...situation that I needed patience in. Very badly. (Yes, patience was apart of what I learnt, but not my focus) I needed to give this situation over to God. And over the course of three weeks of this sitaution, God showed me that when I need to overcome something in my life, the best thing I can do, is keep giving it over to God. No matter how often a day I had to just give it back to God, no matter how I just wanted to do it my way and not let God do it His way, no matter how tired I got of giving it back to Him, I have to give it to Him. He was always there to take it (even though I had done that about 200 times) and to give me strenght to leave it in His hands.
Like I said, most people who live for God have already learnt this and can do it great, but I am young and I and dumb and it takes me a while to learn things. So all I can say is: Thank God, He is God. :)
God Bless.
-J
Well, I am alive. I apparently don't have this whole blog every week down, and most likely never will. Oh well. Blogs can be that way I guess. Anyway. My writing has gone down hill since grade 11, which is when I decided to write a blog. I'm hoping a buddy of mine can help get my creativeness flowing agian. :) Until then, my oh so faithful readers will have to suffer through my writing. I'vve been wanting to start writing poems again, but never seem to have time. as per usual. But anyway, I didn't come on here to rant and complain about my lack of time in a day or my lack of blog posts.
I guess I'd like to say (for all to read in black and white) Thank you God. I am a veryyyyy slow learner when it comes to god trying to change me, and realizing just how perfect He organized and planned things in my life. I love God. and am in consistant reminder how good, big, perfect He is. Keeps me from getting too mad at other people who are just like me. Not perfect. yay!.
ANYWAY. God taught me an important lesson recently, which I'm sure most everyone else in the world has learnt, but like I said, I'm a slow learner. I had...this...situation that I needed patience in. Very badly. (Yes, patience was apart of what I learnt, but not my focus) I needed to give this situation over to God. And over the course of three weeks of this sitaution, God showed me that when I need to overcome something in my life, the best thing I can do, is keep giving it over to God. No matter how often a day I had to just give it back to God, no matter how I just wanted to do it my way and not let God do it His way, no matter how tired I got of giving it back to Him, I have to give it to Him. He was always there to take it (even though I had done that about 200 times) and to give me strenght to leave it in His hands.
Like I said, most people who live for God have already learnt this and can do it great, but I am young and I and dumb and it takes me a while to learn things. So all I can say is: Thank God, He is God. :)
God Bless.
-J
15 June 2009
Life
Hullo! Well, grad is in eight days, ACR is over and exams are not. Oh no! I'm going to say something that every person around my age thinks about school, graduation and growing up.
1). School is overrated for all the wrong reasons and not recognized for the right ones. But like life, it teaches lesson that need to be learnt. I often think that I would've liked to remained home schooled simply because the influence of the world is not the best thing, and especially at that young of an age.
2). Graduation is also overrated, but slightly better. I think the pride of success is important to that young adult...it is one of the biggest things a person can proudly obtain. :) Although, I'm not sure just how I'm going to be able to survive the bordom leading up to it. Haha texting, notes...random singing should help! haha
3). Growing up...ha. ha. ha. And as life as it, theytryandcramasnmuchgrowingupinaspossible!!! Didn't understand that? Well that's how I understand growing up! Too fast, doesn't make sense and takes a while to figure out!! Well I don't think I'll ever figure it out...so that is why God is merciful because people like me don't catch on the first or eighth millionth time and he allows us to keep trying and trying and trying.
The good news is that while I can't get the hang of life, God is working and bringing people to church and showing that He still knows what's going on!
Anyway, any tips on growing up would help..considering I'm not quite reaching the level that I need. :)
Thanks and
God Bless
-J
1). School is overrated for all the wrong reasons and not recognized for the right ones. But like life, it teaches lesson that need to be learnt. I often think that I would've liked to remained home schooled simply because the influence of the world is not the best thing, and especially at that young of an age.
2). Graduation is also overrated, but slightly better. I think the pride of success is important to that young adult...it is one of the biggest things a person can proudly obtain. :) Although, I'm not sure just how I'm going to be able to survive the bordom leading up to it. Haha texting, notes...random singing should help! haha
3). Growing up...ha. ha. ha. And as life as it, theytryandcramasnmuchgrowingupinaspossible!!! Didn't understand that? Well that's how I understand growing up! Too fast, doesn't make sense and takes a while to figure out!! Well I don't think I'll ever figure it out...so that is why God is merciful because people like me don't catch on the first or eighth millionth time and he allows us to keep trying and trying and trying.
The good news is that while I can't get the hang of life, God is working and bringing people to church and showing that He still knows what's going on!
Anyway, any tips on growing up would help..considering I'm not quite reaching the level that I need. :)
Thanks and
God Bless
-J
24 April 2009
Thoughts
Pastor Dehod told us on Wednesday that he was going to say what ever comes to mind from now on...My thought was, I try that but only get into trouble. What am I doing wrong?
Anyway, my prolonged absence. I find myself thinking about how I write, and how I do not write amazingly, or provoke thought like some people do. I find that I write how I talk...this doesn't sit too well with me because sometime (only sometimes) I don't speak that well. I wish to improve, but at the same time, I like being honest..My dad tells me that I need to balance honesty with tact. It may take awhile.
Anyway. I graduate this year. :) I am excited. Unbelievably excited. I don't talk about how my ACR and prom are on the same day, but I am "pumped" for it. :) My mommy is making my dress, that I finally decided on. My cousin is doing my hair and I'm letting her decide what looks good because I'd never get my hair done. I'm pretty excited about every detail...it's crazy. :P
Anyway. On the topic of graduating, what to do after school?? OH NO!! This is the HUGE question that I do not have the answer to. If you do, please don't hesitate to let me know. BUT I do have some ideas.
a). City Police Officer
b). Military Police
c). Go into Criminology
d). Get Married (but there isn't any options, so that's not lookin too likely)
e). Professional Bum
You should let me know what you think. :) But honestly, I don't know...lol I know for sure that I'm not going to be an accountant, a banker, a bank robber, a dentist. But other then that, I'm not sure. It's been on my mind for, well actually ever since I enter High School, but now I actually have to either get a okay job for now or go to school. People always tell me that I have to start thinking about what I want to do and I tell them that I have. lol But then others will tell me that it's the hardest thing ever and right now is the toughest point in my life. Well, to me, it's feels pretty normal. :P To me, I just want what God wants me to do. I know that, that sounds pretty almost corny, but honestly, I don't have a clue what I am suppose to do, and to me, I could do absolutely anything. I don't have any major interests that could develop into a career.
Anyway that is my little deal now. Any advice, ideas, prayers would help. :)
Bye for now.
Love you all. <3
-J
Anyway, my prolonged absence. I find myself thinking about how I write, and how I do not write amazingly, or provoke thought like some people do. I find that I write how I talk...this doesn't sit too well with me because sometime (only sometimes) I don't speak that well. I wish to improve, but at the same time, I like being honest..My dad tells me that I need to balance honesty with tact. It may take awhile.
Anyway. I graduate this year. :) I am excited. Unbelievably excited. I don't talk about how my ACR and prom are on the same day, but I am "pumped" for it. :) My mommy is making my dress, that I finally decided on. My cousin is doing my hair and I'm letting her decide what looks good because I'd never get my hair done. I'm pretty excited about every detail...it's crazy. :P
Anyway. On the topic of graduating, what to do after school?? OH NO!! This is the HUGE question that I do not have the answer to. If you do, please don't hesitate to let me know. BUT I do have some ideas.
a). City Police Officer
b). Military Police
c). Go into Criminology
d). Get Married (but there isn't any options, so that's not lookin too likely)
e). Professional Bum
You should let me know what you think. :) But honestly, I don't know...lol I know for sure that I'm not going to be an accountant, a banker, a bank robber, a dentist. But other then that, I'm not sure. It's been on my mind for, well actually ever since I enter High School, but now I actually have to either get a okay job for now or go to school. People always tell me that I have to start thinking about what I want to do and I tell them that I have. lol But then others will tell me that it's the hardest thing ever and right now is the toughest point in my life. Well, to me, it's feels pretty normal. :P To me, I just want what God wants me to do. I know that, that sounds pretty almost corny, but honestly, I don't have a clue what I am suppose to do, and to me, I could do absolutely anything. I don't have any major interests that could develop into a career.
Anyway that is my little deal now. Any advice, ideas, prayers would help. :)
Bye for now.
Love you all. <3
-J
21 December 2008
Songs
Some of my Favourite songs in the WORLD!!
The Revelation Song
Victory
Everything
Blessed Be Your Name
Amazing Grace
Our God Is An Awesome God
Dance Like David Danced
What Kind of Church Is This?
This is the Day
There was Joy in the House
He Touched Me
-J
The Revelation Song
Victory
Everything
Blessed Be Your Name
Amazing Grace
Our God Is An Awesome God
Dance Like David Danced
What Kind of Church Is This?
This is the Day
There was Joy in the House
He Touched Me
-J
EEP! A new Post!!
Well, Hello all! I am alive. And kicking. Looking through my blog, I realized a couple things, (besides not blogging forEVER) I never said what happened at Camp Meeting and I also want to say a few things about some people in my life...after I tell what happened at Camp Meeting.
Kay so, it started out with the six hour drive that was pretty fun... We took my car, which, for those who don't know, it's a two door Cavalier...pretty small for fitting four people in it. I was driving most of the way...not that I don't mind, but if any of you have ever been in the same vehicle as Rach and Kyle, it's pretty special.
ANYWAY. So we (Mom, me, Rach) were sharing a room with Auntie Darla and children. Hmm, fun times...haha So now for the services...Completely amazing! The best thing in the world and it was a good thing to hear after not for two years! God knows, for anyone who doubts ever, trust me, God know EXACTLY what you need, want, can use, can handle and how to help you grow...DUH.....he is God, after all. The services were amazing and I thank God I was able to go to Camp Meeting. It was good, then I had the experience of watching one of my friends, Larissa get the Holy Ghost!! And it was just a constant thing of being in the Holy Ghost.
And of course that was about the time when my best friend stopped talking to me.. Growing up is lame. haha
Anyway, now I want to say some kind things about some people. I have tons of friends that I love and they help me and we are almost siblings close. There are poeple in my life that are absolutely amazing and I'd like to say some things about them.
My Mommy (Laura)- she be the best one out there...sorry for all the people who think their mom is good, you just haven't meant mine. She is amazing AND she knows God!! She is kind, funny, goofy, lovable, amazing. She is always there for me and is always kind. Me and her are alot alike...haha anyway....lol
My Dad (Shannon)-He is one of the strongest people I know. He never changes and is always there for me. He is serious...only until you get to know him and then you realise where I get my crazy humour from... I wouldn't be quite as responsible as I am now, without him. I love him!
My Sis (Rachel)- She is one of the bestest people in the world. Not a whole lot of people understand her, but I do and I love her. She has wisdom and she keeps me on track...
My Best Friend (Jenn)- I haven't had a funny moment without her... I never will. Us together is scary...lol We get alone great and have some pretty crazy adventures. She knows what I am thinking and most of the time, thinks the same thing.
My Church Family- I have grown up with them, they have seen me in bad moods, in good moods and they have prayed with and for me. They are my support.
My Family- My blood extended family is the best! I am completely blessed to be apart of them and absolutely love them to death! Sometimes, no one but family can truly understand our humour, our thoughts and when we are hyper...uh oh...haha
My Cadet Family in S'toon- There are soo many stories that cna be told, but I don't think anyone but cdts would understand. Grayson, my lil bro and us together...you better watch out! haha we get into crazy adventures. And when you add Sean, Andrew, Rachel, Avery, Sean, David, Devon, Alyssa, and Adam, you get CRAZINESS! We come up with sledding parties, scavenger hunts, caroling at -35C out, (cuz we are cdts and are tough) skiing in crazy weather, weird games...haha but I wouldn't be quite as weird as I am today with them.
My Cadet Family out of S'toon- Thee most amazing people in the planet. My reasoning as to why we aren't in the same city is because one place simply cannot handle that many amazing people. Megan, Steve, Crackers, Tyler, Scott, Dustin, Natalie, James, Mike, Mackenzie, ...oh my. I can go on and on, but they are the most amazing people in the world. We have so many memories and I know I can go to anyone of them for anything. Whether it's for a laugh, a cry, to beat someone up for me, for an escort for something. They will be there no matter what. I love them!!
My friends- Katie, Caleigh, Kody, Karlee, Chelsee...once agian, I can go on and on, but these people are super. We have laughs, get boyfriends for each other, and sing!! haha We are all crazy!
Anyway, I know soo many amazing people who help me, laugh with me, get mad with me, cry wiht me, let me spend the night, pray with me, or even when I ask for prayer. I would have a very boring life without them and I thank them for being amazing!
BUT.. Most of all, God has allowed me to have these amazing people in my life and I would be nothing with out him. He is my all!
God Bless!
I love you all!
SMILE, God loves you!
-J
Kay so, it started out with the six hour drive that was pretty fun... We took my car, which, for those who don't know, it's a two door Cavalier...pretty small for fitting four people in it. I was driving most of the way...not that I don't mind, but if any of you have ever been in the same vehicle as Rach and Kyle, it's pretty special.
ANYWAY. So we (Mom, me, Rach) were sharing a room with Auntie Darla and children. Hmm, fun times...haha So now for the services...Completely amazing! The best thing in the world and it was a good thing to hear after not for two years! God knows, for anyone who doubts ever, trust me, God know EXACTLY what you need, want, can use, can handle and how to help you grow...DUH.....he is God, after all. The services were amazing and I thank God I was able to go to Camp Meeting. It was good, then I had the experience of watching one of my friends, Larissa get the Holy Ghost!! And it was just a constant thing of being in the Holy Ghost.
And of course that was about the time when my best friend stopped talking to me.. Growing up is lame. haha
Anyway, now I want to say some kind things about some people. I have tons of friends that I love and they help me and we are almost siblings close. There are poeple in my life that are absolutely amazing and I'd like to say some things about them.
My Mommy (Laura)- she be the best one out there...sorry for all the people who think their mom is good, you just haven't meant mine. She is amazing AND she knows God!! She is kind, funny, goofy, lovable, amazing. She is always there for me and is always kind. Me and her are alot alike...haha anyway....lol
My Dad (Shannon)-He is one of the strongest people I know. He never changes and is always there for me. He is serious...only until you get to know him and then you realise where I get my crazy humour from... I wouldn't be quite as responsible as I am now, without him. I love him!
My Sis (Rachel)- She is one of the bestest people in the world. Not a whole lot of people understand her, but I do and I love her. She has wisdom and she keeps me on track...
My Best Friend (Jenn)- I haven't had a funny moment without her... I never will. Us together is scary...lol We get alone great and have some pretty crazy adventures. She knows what I am thinking and most of the time, thinks the same thing.
My Church Family- I have grown up with them, they have seen me in bad moods, in good moods and they have prayed with and for me. They are my support.
My Family- My blood extended family is the best! I am completely blessed to be apart of them and absolutely love them to death! Sometimes, no one but family can truly understand our humour, our thoughts and when we are hyper...uh oh...haha
My Cadet Family in S'toon- There are soo many stories that cna be told, but I don't think anyone but cdts would understand. Grayson, my lil bro and us together...you better watch out! haha we get into crazy adventures. And when you add Sean, Andrew, Rachel, Avery, Sean, David, Devon, Alyssa, and Adam, you get CRAZINESS! We come up with sledding parties, scavenger hunts, caroling at -35C out, (cuz we are cdts and are tough) skiing in crazy weather, weird games...haha but I wouldn't be quite as weird as I am today with them.
My Cadet Family out of S'toon- Thee most amazing people in the planet. My reasoning as to why we aren't in the same city is because one place simply cannot handle that many amazing people. Megan, Steve, Crackers, Tyler, Scott, Dustin, Natalie, James, Mike, Mackenzie, ...oh my. I can go on and on, but they are the most amazing people in the world. We have so many memories and I know I can go to anyone of them for anything. Whether it's for a laugh, a cry, to beat someone up for me, for an escort for something. They will be there no matter what. I love them!!
My friends- Katie, Caleigh, Kody, Karlee, Chelsee...once agian, I can go on and on, but these people are super. We have laughs, get boyfriends for each other, and sing!! haha We are all crazy!
Anyway, I know soo many amazing people who help me, laugh with me, get mad with me, cry wiht me, let me spend the night, pray with me, or even when I ask for prayer. I would have a very boring life without them and I thank them for being amazing!
BUT.. Most of all, God has allowed me to have these amazing people in my life and I would be nothing with out him. He is my all!
God Bless!
I love you all!
SMILE, God loves you!
-J
01 November 2008
Tagged??
Rules:
1. Link the person that tagged you.
2. Mention the rules on your own blog
3. List 6 unspectacular things about you or your group.
4. Taggify 6 other blogger
So someone was brilliant and came up with this....nice. Anyway, my wonderful mother. yay moms!...oh, I mean, my wonderful mother tagged me with this...
Anyway, six things about me? What if I can't count that high?? I'll try but don't expect too much.
1). My motto is "open mouth, insert foot" I like to follow this diligently because I believe that practice makes perfect....haha
2). I am left handed and ambidextrous
3). I got my car before my licence, paid off my car in just over a year, and got into a car accident within a month of me driving by myself. (oh dear) And I drove in Calgary by myself within six months of having my licence.
4). I've never been on a date, am one of the few girls in the world who doesn't want to wear make up, and was home schooled for eight years
5). I want to become a Police Officer
6). I am very stubbo--wait, you already know that. sigh. I love singing with all my heart, but can't carry a tune to save my life, the song Amazing Grace played by bagpipes brings me to tears, I stand at attention any time singing "Oh Canada" and I actually SING it.
And I tag Jenn P, Gary F, Rachel P (seeing as she still hasn't done this yet.), and I don't know any other bloggers that haven't done this. Sorry....not lol
Anyway, have a good day, smile, laugh, pray, sing, dance, and...and.....go for a run!
-J
28 October 2008
....
Pslams.51
[1] Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. [2] Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. [3] For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. [4] Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. [5] Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me. [6] Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. [7] Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. [8] Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice. [9] Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. [10] Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. [11] Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. [12] Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. [13] Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee. [14] Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. [15] O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise. [16] For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering. [17] The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. [18] Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem. [19] Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.
WOW. This chapter in the Bible makes me cry. It shows just how merciful Jesus is, that not matter how far you stray for him, he is there to take you back, time doesn't matter, age doesn't matter, circumstances don't matter. Being saved does.
So this weekend, Bro David Holmes preached because Pastor Dehod was away, and he said a few things that grabbed me.
-God always wins.
-You can never outrun, outdetemind, outdistance God (paraphrasing)
-Once you are saved, his light follows you
-Other people don't understand.
-Jesus loves you no matter what.
God Bless.
-J
[1] Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. [2] Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. [3] For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. [4] Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. [5] Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me. [6] Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. [7] Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. [8] Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice. [9] Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. [10] Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. [11] Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. [12] Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. [13] Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee. [14] Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. [15] O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise. [16] For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering. [17] The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. [18] Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem. [19] Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar.
WOW. This chapter in the Bible makes me cry. It shows just how merciful Jesus is, that not matter how far you stray for him, he is there to take you back, time doesn't matter, age doesn't matter, circumstances don't matter. Being saved does.
So this weekend, Bro David Holmes preached because Pastor Dehod was away, and he said a few things that grabbed me.
-God always wins.
-You can never outrun, outdetemind, outdistance God (paraphrasing)
-Once you are saved, his light follows you
-Other people don't understand.
-Jesus loves you no matter what.
God Bless.
-J
13 October 2008
God Alone
Well, here I am again. And once again, I'm in the writing mood. Imagine that..lol Anyway, here are some things that I wanted to share with you.
My favourite Scripture in the Bible:
"But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." ISAIAH 40:31
Something that I came up with:
God Alone
If you don't know, Ask
If you are scared, Hugs
If you are alone, Pray
If you are happy, Sing
If you love someone, Tell
If you are weak, Faith
If you are angry, Help
If you are discouraged, Smile
If you are smiling, Laugh
If you are sad, Cry
If you are all or one of these things, Go to God.
God Bless and remember someone loves you, no matter where are you, what you have done, how you have acted, or how you look.
A friend told me, one day, that you can only be you, you can't change you (your special personalities), you can only be you. You can't act like someone else, you can only do you best. You can only be you best, and no one else can be you.
-J
08 October 2008
Away!
Well, Hello all!
Yes, it has been months since I have last written. Well, I have my reasons, some of them being, I haven't had time (whoever made the 24-hour-day, didn't realize that it wasn't enough time in a day. Pity they aren't alive now to see for themselves) anyway, and the biggest reason is simply because I haven't had anything to write. I mean, I had topics, but I always felt like I really didn't want the whole world to know, or they already did (you see, I have this theory, that if you have a problem with something, and the more people you talk to about it, the better you feel. So when I had a problem, the whole world knew....is this unusual?? lol). Anyway, then, tonight, I was being really bored, and trying to see if I had the guts to try and learn something new, without help, and I had the STRANGEST urge to write. So here I am. Writing for the first time in forever and it actually feels like it's time again. I guess I just needed a break?? lol Maybe..
So, with my life, lately, I have been going through some pretty wonderful stuff (please note sarcasm.) and me thinks that is why I haven't written. I find that when I write, it makes me look at things more logically and I get through my thoughts better. Only I haven't been writing since, oh about early Aug. And, to be honest (this is always a good thing.) that is probably when things started...
Lets see, in the month of August, I had several things happen to me, and I can even list them..lol
1). My best friend got into TONS of trouble-uh oh.
2). My sis and I and some other people, the next week, got into TONS of trouble...bigger uh oh.
3). My best friend stops talking to me. crack! (yes, that was my heart)
4). I start grade 12 and find out that I have one friend in my school. wow. I'm impressed.
5). Then, through out this whole time, I have the regular fights, nasty attitudes, speeding tickets and other fun things.
So, August wasn't much fun, and come to think of it, neither was September. Oh dear. Now what? Good question. If you have an answer, please let me know...lol
I have spent several hours, days, and several days worrying, praying, talking and getting mad (which, while it doesn't solve a thing, if you are in trust worthy company, helps) while trying to sort myself out. Now, I feel like I can't do anything about anything, except control myself....on occasion. And that doesn't particularly sit well with me.
And, right now, nothing has changed, I still have things to do, not enough time, problems that are on my head, and people to....deal with. But inside me, I think something is happening. Something is stirring and maybe will come to light soon. But something is different in maybe my heart? hmm.
You know, actually you don't, but before, I felt awkward trying to write a blog post, and now, I don't, so I think that is the biggest thing. (I guess when one's best friend quits that role, then self confidence goes WAYY down.) And, another thing, since I don't have one anymore, I have started to think about God being the one and True Best Friend. And, I don't really think people can say that, unless they have experienced a loss that causes them to turn back to God as the most reliable friend of all. And maybe that's why I have had to go through that loss, to realize that God is good.
Hmm, thinking and writing at the same time causes a very confusing blog post. Oh well, I'm sure you can figure it out. :)
ANyway, I'm going to depart to my bed and let you read this. Have a good night, God bless and remember to smile and laugh. Because the Lord is AMAZING!
-J
17 August 2008
Away
Hi, so I am away in Washington for a week. It's lots of fun. My family and I try and go every year, but last year, we weren't able to go because of cadets. Once I go here, I realized how much I had missed this huge city and how much everything has changed. You know, because I thought that I was the only one who was allowed to change in a year, and no one else is allowed too...lol Anyway, I love it here, Seattle is huge and super kewl and Bro. Bow's church is amazing. We went shopping today, and then, tonight, we went to the Space Needle. Now, that is cool. It's 600 ft. high and amazing. The only scary part was the elevator that goes 10 mph and goes up and down 600 ft. in 46 sec. My heart was in my throat and I am cured of going on any elevators for the rest of my life. Like actually....lol. Super scary. Before that, we had toured downtown Seattle, (I wanted to drive, but alas, Dad wouldn't let me...lol) and made fun of the people. I love the big city and all the "happenings" but I would never want to live down here. It's nice once a year...lol.
Anyway, I just wanted to ketch you guys up on my life. Oh, Mark got a flat tire while we were in Seattle and no one was able to help him, so he had to leave the car on the highway...opps. :)
God Bless from Seattle, Washington.
-J
01 August 2008
Growing up?
Hello all. I can faithfully report that this past week has been one of the busiest weeks of my life...that I can remember, anyway. I was working two jobs, plus hanging out with great friends (Gary, Kyle, Bo, Rach, Steph, Larissa, Mitch, Becca...etc.). It's been crazy. But fun. I haven't been that tired in a long time...BUT thank God it's done! Now, the really exciting part, is that I am going to Calgary all next week for the Canadian Plains District Conference. I am SO excited! Honestly, I haven't been in TWO years and I am kinda nervous because I haven't seen so many people on a long time. It's going to be really good.
Now, for my blog post. My thoughts haven't been organised. Well, some people would say they never are, but they really are when it comes to writing. Lately, in my life, I am confused and it reflects in my writing, causing it to not make sense. Like now. I have realized that now that I am not taking my creatative writing class anymore, it's harder to write and it to make sense. I don't have an actual topic, like my other postes, but kinda want to write my confudulled thoughts, which I'm not use to doing.
ANYWAY, back to my confusedness. Right now, I am going through some growing up...or maybe I am being put to a test. I don't know. But I do know, that I fail more times then I actually do something right. Like this morning.
EX1:
Last night, five of my friends above mentioned and I went to Martinsville and had kinda some fun (I will get back to the kinda later) and on the way there and back, we used my car. I am grounded from using my car other than work because I like to speed and my parents are kind. So, I had gas in it and I offered it. Then we get home, and go to bed...well, it's a lil' more complicated, but that's the gist. Then I wake up to go to work at 0715. Only to find, as I also find I'm going to be late for work, that my car keys are missing. So, I get mad. I have this nasty temper that will be the death of me. And that resulted in me phoning Dad to tell him I was going to be late for work, Rachel hanging up on him because she isn't quite a morning person. And her throwing the phone in my direction, me getting mad again (actually I hadn't stopped getting mad) and throwing another phone at her, hitting her head, creating a very large bump.
So, Fail Number Three Hundred Thousand and Ten.
Last night was Fail Number Three Hundred Thousand and One-Nine.
My point:
I struggle to do right, to control my temper, to simply know when to do the right thing. And I am tired of it. But, I find myself doing the right thing and everything when it hurts me the most. Like when people around me are going crazy and I'm not and I could because I was wronged. But then I fall. I often feel like I am going through something that is so hard for me to get, then I finally get it, and the next thing starts. Like, I get something my parents try to get me to get, then I don't get the next thing. Then I just want to go back. But.
This is where it gets not clear. me.
I have a huge temper that I am not afraid to stand up if I think it's right. My problem is that the right isn't always right. And I am very stubborn. To me, I just want to find the right thing and stand by it and do everything for it and all that. But.
Most times, I feel like a little child still who doesn't know, who doesn't understand, who get confused and who wonders without answers. I have people come to me and tell me things that I have to help them, but I am inadequate to. And I don't understand why people come to me, who doesn't experience the things they need help with.
Anyway, God Bless
-J
31 July 2008
Hmmmm,
Well, long time no blog, I know. That's okay though, because I have been working on, well, work and I pretty much don't have a life anymore...lol. This is what work does to you.
Anyway, My life is full of work, free running, and, and confusion....more on that later...
Well, have a good day. And smile?
lol
-J
Advise for the week: wait to get a job if you don't have to...babysitting counts....lol
Anyway,through out the summer, I have come to some conclusion that have helped clear some things up (now, that wasn't vague at all) and life is....err, was good. Now, I am once again, confused. Life is strange and I don't like it at the monent, but I can't say that it's dull and I am bored. I simply don't understand. And, to be honest, I really don't think I ever will understand. Which sucks. Anyway, My life is full of work, free running, and, and confusion....more on that later...
Well, have a good day. And smile?
lol
-J
03 July 2008
Enjoy People
Hi,
Well, today, I was about to call one of my really good friends and tell him something, and as I considered the idea, I thought I could also blog about it too. So, this goes back to a conversation that I had with my dad yesterday. I was talking to my dad and we were talking about a relative of ours and (for the sake of this post, I will refer to this person as Bob) my dad commented on how Bob should join this program because it is a super program and Bob would learn things from it. But as we continued to talk, Dad said that Bob was too intense and he wouldn't be able to handle the problems. Then, my dad said something that really was amazing. He said that Bob just needed to enjoy people. (now, go back and reread it, and think about it) My first thought was yes, of course Bob needs to enjoy people. How could you not enjoy people? But the thought stuck with me. People have problems, and 98% of the time, we are completely consumed with them. We try and figure them out, solve them, try and live with them, and lose friends over them. Well, if you stop and think back to the last time you just had fun. You didn't worry about poeple and everything that goes alone with them, you just simply enjoyed them. Have fun, laugh, don't be stupid, enjoy the moment.
Now, where I come in. I haven't enjoyed people in a long time. And I really need to. I just need to relax and remember why I have people as friends.
The hard part (haven't you ever noticed that there is always a hard part to things?) is that if you don't like a person that you are hanging out with.
Solution: It takes lots of practice, but use self control and deal with it. I am the perfect example. I have over 800 issues with people and am reminded of it daily. So, I need to shut my mouth and pray through. To me, this is super, super hard and I need to work on it, almost every time I hang out the a group of people.
This is what I think, if I don't get along with someone completely, then I need to either not be around them, deal with it, or have a split personality and like them. This is why I need to pray through alot.
But, if you are just being picky and winny and don't like the person, then deal with it. Enjoy your friends, cherish moments, laugh, and be real.
-J
NOTE: Just a note on the BE REAL, I will blog about that later in more detail.
Well, today, I was about to call one of my really good friends and tell him something, and as I considered the idea, I thought I could also blog about it too. So, this goes back to a conversation that I had with my dad yesterday. I was talking to my dad and we were talking about a relative of ours and (for the sake of this post, I will refer to this person as Bob) my dad commented on how Bob should join this program because it is a super program and Bob would learn things from it. But as we continued to talk, Dad said that Bob was too intense and he wouldn't be able to handle the problems. Then, my dad said something that really was amazing. He said that Bob just needed to enjoy people. (now, go back and reread it, and think about it) My first thought was yes, of course Bob needs to enjoy people. How could you not enjoy people? But the thought stuck with me. People have problems, and 98% of the time, we are completely consumed with them. We try and figure them out, solve them, try and live with them, and lose friends over them. Well, if you stop and think back to the last time you just had fun. You didn't worry about poeple and everything that goes alone with them, you just simply enjoyed them. Have fun, laugh, don't be stupid, enjoy the moment.
Now, where I come in. I haven't enjoyed people in a long time. And I really need to. I just need to relax and remember why I have people as friends.
The hard part (haven't you ever noticed that there is always a hard part to things?) is that if you don't like a person that you are hanging out with.
Solution: It takes lots of practice, but use self control and deal with it. I am the perfect example. I have over 800 issues with people and am reminded of it daily. So, I need to shut my mouth and pray through. To me, this is super, super hard and I need to work on it, almost every time I hang out the a group of people.
This is what I think, if I don't get along with someone completely, then I need to either not be around them, deal with it, or have a split personality and like them. This is why I need to pray through alot.
But, if you are just being picky and winny and don't like the person, then deal with it. Enjoy your friends, cherish moments, laugh, and be real.
-J
NOTE: Just a note on the BE REAL, I will blog about that later in more detail.
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